Friday, June 1, 2012
Nothing seems to be getting better.
Just worse.
Yeah. Pretty much sounding like a pessimist huh?
Not like I want to.
But I really can't see the good in pretty much everything now.
The more I try, the worse it gets.
Is it me or it's just everyone else around me?
I'm scared.
I really am.
Yet I do not know what I am scared for or of.
But yet, I do know.
Am I going crazy?
Probably.
Losing my mind?
Oh wait.
Already have.
I'm scared
Yet glad
Yet sad
Yet mad
What's happening?
I really hate this.
Why must it be me?
Why can't it be someone else
Who has the screwed up family?
Why can't it be someone else
Who has to put on a different mask for different people?
Why can't I be someone else?
Why can't I be happy?
I don't even know who I really am anymore.
Right now, I'm just a shell.
Smiling.
It's fake.
Laughing.
It's fake.
Me.
I'm fake.
So what is real?
I can't find anything that is really real.
So my life is technically fake huh?
So happiness is just suppose to be some fairy tale bullshit.
I don't want to do this anymore.
But I don't know how to stop it.
I don't even know who I am anymore.
So what's the point?
Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being someone big
We're so young then
We were too crazy in love
When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream
We'll Be A Dream
By We The Kings ft. Demi Lovato
what we could have been, 9:58 PM.
Monday, May 14, 2012
I don't know what happen between us
but then again,I don't wanna know.
I should happy right now.
Exams are over
Holidays are starting.
But I feel so screwed up.
Fuck school.
Fuck family.
All in all.
Fuck everyone.
I'm sick of pleasing everyone
What about me?
Have I ever thought of me?
I want to be really selfish
For me
Not to me but for me.
But I can't can I?
Cause if I do.
Everything would just all come crashing down.
I've wasted my nights
You turn out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time
When we called it love
But even the sun sets
In paradise
I'm at a payphone
Trying to call home
All of my change
I spend on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it's all wrong
WHere are all plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of shit
One more fucking love song
I'll be sick.
Payphone by Maroon 5 ft Khalifa
what we could have been, 10:15 AM.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
OMG.THE HUNGER GAMES CAST.
PERFECTION.
I SWEAR THE MOVIE WAS GREAT.
BUT.
THE BOOK WAS EVEN BETTER.
HAHA.
Daddy can you hear,
the devil drawing near?
Like a bullet from a gun,
Run daddy run
All the songs you used
To sing to me would
Rock the birds to sleep
I need you now
So please somehow
Put rockets on your feet
Run Daddy Run
By Miranda Lambert Ft.
The Pistol Annies
what we could have been, 3:30 PM.
Friday, February 24, 2012
There are different kinds of relationships
But the fundemental one is always friendship
So far so good.
Life's been alright but it wouldn't
be the best right now.
SIGH.
It really doesnt mean that we were once close
We would be close as hell forever.
Then again,
it really depends on whether
it was a real friendship in the first place.
And if it is worth to
keep the friendship going.
Friends may be easily gained.
But friendships are not.
It takes time and effort like
everything else to create one.
Time and effort are precious.
which means it is only meant to be used on
people who are actually worth it.
Because it will eventually reward you.
With a lasting and wonderful friendship
that can never be replaced.
For everyone to see
That I am yours and
You belong to me
And nothing in this world can
Ever make me this happy
So don't fall asleep
Are you sinking
And from here on in
I'm giving everything
Cause nothing compares
To what we shared
I don't have a care in the world
Cause even if it all came
Crashing down
As long as you are around
I'll be safe and sound
Safe And Sound by Tonight Alive
what we could have been, 11:31 PM.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Omg.
Suddenly there is like so
many's people's birthday.
Especially in March.
But we are gonna celebrate
one next tues^^
Okay so my present to her
is...kinda pathetic
well
to me it is.
But it's handmade okay.
HAHA.
I'm spending WAY too much money now.
HAHA.
okay.
You locked me down
Your locks were made
To break
I'd rather die a
Thousand deaths,
Anyway.
I can run
I can fly
You can kiss this thing goodbye
Call me out and cry about
The one that got away
I can stand
I can fight
Yeah,I'm breaking us
Tonight
Call me out and cry about
The one that got away
The One That Got Away
By Hey Monday
what we could have been, 9:15 PM.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!
Finally.
Omg.
YeeLing finally when
for lunch with me
after like for so long-.-
HAHA.
Okay so now
I feel guilty.
Okay but not about dragging
yeeling for lunch
HAHA.
I swear.
This week is full of shit
well not shit but
you get what I mean.
And I think next week
would be hell too.
Time is going way too fast
AGAIN.
Seriously,what's with the rush?
One minute ago,
I was 13
going to a new sch
and the next thing I know is
that now I'm 15
almost half done with the sch alr.
What the hell.
Time should seriously
Learn how to slow down.
To chill.
Cause I want to slow down and chill.
We've been picking up the pieces
Leaving all the dust behind
Sick of all the pressure
You're just wasting time
And I don't ever wanna
Know what it feels like
To be a shadow of myself
And I don't ever want to
Come back down from this feeling
What makes you think that
You know what's better for me
And I don't think you wanna
See what's underneath
Your made up version of me
Rumor Mill By WATIC
what we could have been, 4:42 PM.
Friday, February 10, 2012
THE HUNGER GAMES
Omg,I cant wait for the movie!
But it's like on 23 march
and that's very long:(
okay this is the cover by
Megan Nicole and Tiffany Alvord(:
I kind of like this better
than the original one
which is by Talyor swift
and the civil wars
HAHA.
now life's just plain crazy.
CT just ended and the teachers
are already piling hw for us.
THANKS.
Sec 3 is so much more different
than sec2 and 1.
not saying that it's not fun
but the smart-ness of the others
are like WOW.
And yes,I'm jealous.
HAHA. BUT WHO CARES. LOL.
I remember tears streaming
Down your face When I said
I'll never let you go
When all those shadows
Almost killed your light
I remembered you said
Don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone
And past tonight
Just close your eyes,
The sun is going down
You'll be alright,
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound
Safe And Sound By Megan Nicole
And Tiffany Alvord
what we could have been, 4:04 PM.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Happy Birthday Yee Ling!(:
It's been so long
since I've blog.
LOL.
To me it is.
Thanks to my new phone,
I'm rarely on the lap top anymore:)
and it's so hard to blog with a phone.
LOL.
I'm mostly on twitter now.
TWEETTWEET.
I WANNA CRY.
I'm not growing any taller.
I'm running out of time.
Santa,this chritmas can you give me
something to make me taller?
I promise I'll be good next year.
Please?
I've been here too
Many times before
And your tears
Don't mean a thing
I only come
When you scream
I told you
Child,don't follow
Me home
You're just too perfect
For my hand to hold
If you choose to stay
You'll throw it all away
And I just want to take
Your innocence
Innocence by Halestorm
what we could have been, 3:46 PM.
Monday, December 12, 2011
I love this song.
Not because of breaking dawn:)
Omg,I'm going to be an anti social soon
with my new Iphone.
Ahahahaha.
Just Kidding.
HEHE.
I love my new phone.
But the battery die so fast:?
Good thing it charges fast.
LOL.
Heartbeat Fast
Colours and promises
How to be brave
How can I love
When I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All my doubts suddenly
Goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
A Thousand Years By Christina Perri
what we could have been, 11:15 AM.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Currently rotting at home
OMG.
The past few nights were hell
Couldn't sleep at all
Rubbish.
Finally fell asleep at 2
and some idiot would make some
unnecessary noise early in
the damn morning.
God.
Even better.
I pierce my ears
about 5 days ago
and it's giving
me a hell of
problems already.
God.
I'm rotting at home.
No scratch that.
I'm dead already.
It was like a time bomb
Set in a motion
We knew that we were
Destined to Explode
And if I had to pull
You out of the wreckage
You know I'm never
Gonna let you go
We're like a time bomb
Gonna lose it
Let's defuse it
Baby
We're like a time bomb
But I need it
Wouldn't have it
Any other way
Got my heart
In your hands
Like a time bomb ticking
It goes off
We start again
When it breaks
We fix it
Got your heart
In my hands
Like a time bomb ticking
We should know better
But we won't let go
Time Bomb By All Time Low
what we could have been, 11:26 AM.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Ahahaha.
I'm rotting at home
And my throat hurts:/
I can't talk and it's killing me.
I can't not talk
but now,I have no choice.
This is so shitty.
Camp is in another day
and with my voice like this,
I might as well be a mute
for the next three days.
OMG.
It's clear to me
The lies you use
The ones that killed me
Ain't hurting you
So I know
I just gotta let it go
I should'a known
I gotta learn to
Say goodbye now
I throw my armour down
And leave the battleground
For the final time now
I know I'm running
From a warzone
Warzone by The Wanted
what we could have been, 12:04 PM.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Waking up early today
was a huge mistake.
wait.
waking up is already
a mistake itself.
So this mistake is
even bigger than I thought.
Headache,tired and pissed.
Blame it all on
WAKING UP.
Run into the light
Get out of your own way
Not afraid to fight
Believe in what you say
I'll hold on till the night
Hanging by a thread
I'm not scared to let go
Thoughts inside your head
That creep up to get you
I believe this is right
So i'll hold on til the night
Hold On Till The Night
By Greyson Chance
what we could have been, 3:10 PM.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Thursday.
Was fun^^
Okay,fun seem very
Um..little
but it was really fun
The first class outing.
Sure other than the bbq pit
not wanting to light up and some
friends were injured,
It wasn't really that bad.
The part at night
near the sea
Was the best.
Until I learn that sewage
was dumped into it.
So are you listening?
Are you watching me?
Well,I can't pretend
That I don't see this
It's really not your fault
When no one cares to talk
About this
Talk about it
Cause I've seen
Love die,
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
And I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserved to be alive
Emergency by Paramore
what we could have been, 9:26 PM.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
I love this song^^
Haha
My new favorite:)
So many things I
Should've said
When I had a
Chance
So many times
We took it all
For granted
I'd never thought
That this could
Ever end
I'd never thought
I'll lose my
Best friend
Everything is
Different now
Can we stop the
World from turning
I'd never thought
I'd have to let you go
I'd never thought
I'd ever feel this low
I wish I could go back
Can we stop the
World from turning
Best Years Of Our Lives
By Evan Taubenfeld ft. Avril Lavigne
what we could have been, 12:27 PM.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Now I'm starting to feel depress.
I can't believe that I'm gonna be
15 next year.
New class.
New people.
I never like change.
And now it's coming fast
And fucking going to smack
Me right in the face.
God.
I'm praying for next year.
In another life
I would be your girl
We keep all our
Promises be us
Against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that
got away
The One That Got Away
By Katy Perry
what we could have been, 5:45 PM.
